Running and a new regime

Okay, today is Thursday 11th of February.

A lot has happened since my last post-I suffered a mini-stroke (TIA) back in December and it has left me with partial paralysis in my rght arm and leg. I also suffer from severe focal migraine, basically this means that parts of my body become numb when I suffer from an attack. I am currently off work and have been for nearly 2 months. I visited my Doctor today and he has signed a sick-note for another 2 weeks, in this time I'm going to try and sort out my health (other than the paralysis that is.)

So, day of new regime goes:

Swimming on Monday night and Wednesday night (time table below) from about 6:30pm-7:30pm, this gives me a solid hour warming up for running later on.
Running at night, most nights if I can (must remember to keep away from bikers-most of them seem to not have lights on their bloody bikes!) around 7:00pm-ish until 7:30pm-8:00pm.

Opening Hours

Monday-Friday (except Thursday-see below) 8.00 am - 9.00pm (last ticket 8.30pm)
Thursday & Bank Holidays: 8.00am - 6.00pm (last ticket 5.30pm)
Saturday: 8.00am - 4.30pm last ticket 4.00pm
Sunday: 8.00am - 5.30pm (last ticket 5.00pm)

Hopefully this will be easy enough to stick to. I enjoyed my run tonight in any case, I do need to remember to buy a sports bra at some stage as having no bra on killed me! I cannot use my regular bra as it seems to hurt when I run.

Jogging through the quarry tonight I realised how beautiful it was to watch the street lights hit the water, it gave me something decent to look at whilst thinking about things. Recently I realise I have lost my purpose in life, I don't really have anything I am striving towards and this makes me depressed. The new tablets I have been assigned shall hopefully fix the migraine problems and I can get back to work-I figure if I bury myself within work and exercise I shall bury my problems and my roaming mind will be kept busy. I have been thinking about all the things I don't have-not on a materialistic level, but on a enriching my life type of vein. I've never wanted these things before and coming to terms with my need for them now has left me grmpy and contemplative. As I say, if I am kept busy my exercise at least then my mind will hopefully shut up and my inner body clock will be kept silent aswell.

Food is a big problem for me, at the moment (past month) I have been eating less and less-this is to do with me stuck inside though and not using up any extra energy. I want to try and stick to:

1. 2 slices of toast with marmalade or jam/Crunchy nut cornflakes in the morning
2. I am going to miss out my afternoon meal (I haven't been having anything anyway)
3. At night I am probably going to have crunchy nut cornflakes (dependng on how I feel and what I am doing later that day) soup/baked potato/salad/small stir fry.

Hopefully this will work out. I am also determined to cut down on my sugar and salt intake as it is truly shocking! 4 sugars ina cup of tea or coffee?! It's madness really. I'll see if I can take up kick boxing at a later stage, but I feel that will probably be a bit too strenous for my leg to get back into doing. I think I'm coping quite well concidering most of the time I feel like I'm losing touch of the real world. I'm not going to write down my current woes as I don't really want people to read it-plus I don't want to be constantly reminded of the things I can't have.

Well that's it for now, I'm going shopping with Marie tomorrow so I'll try and purchase a swimming costume whilst I am out-that is my main goal as I used to love swimming.

Right, that's me done! I'll pop another entry down when I have news.