Ah, an update !!WARNING!! EMO AHEAD!

Hello my little blog-readers ^_^*

I have much news! Things have been a little on the crazy side for me recently...well, I say 'recently,' it's the past year or so.

December 2009: I had a TIA and end up in hospital until January time. I was also 'diagnosed'
(I say this loosely as they are still uneasy about naming it this) with something called 'Asymmetrical brain disorder,' or something along those lines :D I can never remember what they tell me now -_-; I need to write things down all the time on paper so I can remember it :/ I feel like I have memory loss now!! It's some version of it.

August: I split up with Gareth after 2 years. It was a...'amicable split,' so far anyway. I'm getting a little annoyed though with certain aspects of it all as I'm made out to be the 'bad guy,' oh! If only they knew :P

August, end of: My family in devon (consisting of mum, Rae and her boyfriend) have been in a bad car crash :( I wasn't sure how bad until I found out that they had been lying to me about everyone being at home and being 'fine.' Rae and Rob were at home and mum is STILL in hospital :'( she should be out of hospital by this wednesday (8th September) so I can finally chat to her. I know that she wanted to keep me 'safe' from the knowledge that she was ill as she worries about me and says that I can't 'take anymore bad news,' I'm not going to break! I would prefer people to tell me the truth, I've been lied to about other important things and I don't want it to carry on! Hopefully I'll have more news on everyone's health when I write next (God knows when that will be!) I pray it's all good news in any case. I just wish the person that is sticking the pins in my doll would fuck off already!

September: I started dating Shaun <3 style="font-weight: bold;">

At the moment I have children talking to me in my ear and I cannot concentrate! ARGH! Bugger orf ;P I am living with my father, his partner and her kids (the girl is 13 and the boy is 11) I get peace mainly, I do try and stay in the one front room (they have 2) as it's 'Kat's space,' apparently. I do need the peace though, not for antisocial reasons, but because I must have quiet sometimes so that my brain can rest. I feel worse each week in a different way than last. My eye is the thing that's annoying me the most recently, my right one feels a lot weaker than the other. I'm also saying words wrong and sometimes write letters backwards :( I try and be as ambidexterous as I can be (the children have gone now, so I can concentrate) although my writing with my left hand sucks.

I hope the new flat is ready soon. I am in my fathers debt for putting me up like this, I know they appreciate the fact that I take the kids out (with a sniper rifle if I had my way...j/k) and that I do a lot of housework and stuff but I do feel like I am a huge pain in the arse here and I want to have my own space again. I need to rustle up £285.00 for the first months rent in advance, but I've been told I can sign a bond that enables me to do away with paying any deposit etc, I'd just have to pay for anything I break (it's unfurnished so I doubt I'll be smashing anything of mine up!) I just hope everything goes a little smoother than it has been doing recently.

I THINK that's about it, I've got to go now as don fajah has asked me to check his magical chip cooking machine (one of those ones that you have to put in a spoon of oil rather than a litre) otherwise he will do my head in about it -_-;

See yah all!

xxx