Daddy issues :/

Hallo!

Another blog entry...it's not even Christmas ;D

Sooo, what's being going on? Well, I am STILL waiting to get this damn flat. I've obviously outstayed my welcome and my fathers as he's said. Giving me deposit money for a place and basically saying, 'go' kinda gives me the impression he's had enough.
Why should I think he'd be okay with his daughter stopping with him when she's homeless? I've been here just a little over 2 weeks and he's fed up of me? I'm not that surprised, I mean, he wasn't there for 16 years of my life so why would he be here now? Why break a habit of a lifetime? Yet he can quite happily be baking cupcakes with his partners daughter as he is doing now. Hmmmm, yeah.

Ah well, sooner I get the fucking hell out of here the better as I can feel the molten lava racing through my chest, wanting to just explode in the way of a fiery tongue-lashing and vile words. I'm trying to hold the rage in, I really am. It's very difficult.

Take Monday morning. I had little to no sleep Sunday night as I spasmed badly all through the night time. Finally getting to sleep I am then awoken by my fathers face around the door informing me I have to 'get up and clean your grandads house. I'll be back in an hour. Be ready.' Said like a threat aswell. I mean, 6am?! So at 7am I am up, washed and dressed, absolutely exhausted and wanting to cry. He drops he at Grandads where I clean SOLIDLY for 4 hours.

I then go to Sarah's to wait for the guy to see me about the flat. I get a phone call from Jo's silly little daughter who is at school asking if I'll be home for her brother. Am I the mother? No. I say I won't be as I'm going to sort the flat out, I tell her to give her brother the keys so he can get in and she says she will. So, problem solved. Later on, phone call again, which I ignore as I am not her minder. Then I receive a text saying, 'What ever happens tell ---- i'm in school i'll explain tomorrow but i'm helping out some teacher's for the last few lessons :) xx'
What in the hell? So I ring my father and tell him that something weird is going on, he doesn't give a shit because the kids 'aren't his problem,' well...there's a surprise!

I don't get to see the flat as the guy is too busy to show me, bummer :( so I trot back to my Grandads to get a lift from my father back to Jo's, Grandads dirty washing it tow. I take the long way to my Grandads and sit by the river for a little while to think. I was indeed tempted to submerge myself in her chilly depths. The feeling was quite strong and before I could do anything stupid I stood up and carried on walking.

On arriving at Jo's place we notice her daughter, the one I mention above, walking towards the bridge and she has a smug look on her face as she greets us. I shake my head as I have no idea what is actually going on and I don't care as I am so tired that I crash out for an hour. I wake up and a dinner awaits me as an apology of sorts and I wolf it down as I've not eaten all day. I tidy up the kitchen, front room, etc. and return to my 'room' so I am out of the way. I read my book for a little bit and then I hear 'Where IS she?!' from the front room. I abandon the book and peek my head around the corner. Jo is fuming as her daughter is meant to have been home 2 hours ago. She is 13 years old and it's getting dark. Jo and her son take off in one direction and I take off in another, jogging to the cinema, Asda, the underpass, the quarry, all over the place. I get a call about 30 minutes later to come back as she has been found. I start jogging back, my feet and calves burning with my effort. I feel good though, I think I'm going to take up jogging again...after investing in a sports bra...ouch!

I arrive back at the house, flushed in the face and breathing like a rapist. She has not only been missing for 2 hours but she also skipped school after lunch! She'd lied to her teacher and said she had a dentists appointment to attend :/ she was checking whether I was in the house or not as she got home and changed her clothes to go up town. Then she met a 16 year old boy...Christ 0_0;

She has entirely too much freedom for her own good! So now there is a lot of shouting and tears. I am asked to kill the kids Facebook account, which she shouldn't have ANYWAY imho because she is just too young! I get really cross at the lax attitude of parents nowadays, grrr! I get a 'thanks' for running about trying to find her and for killing her FB account. So I turn in for the night as I am exhausted.

Today (Tuesday) has been uneventful, thankfully! No phone call from the guy about the flat though, hopefully there will be one tomorrow as I've had enough. I did get another call though, from Shaun :3 it made my entire day! Hopefully I will get to see him this weekend as I do miss him, a lot. I had a fantastic weekend before all of this crap happened on Monday (I still cannot believe that was all ONE day!) and I spent a lot of time with him :) I didn't think I could feel like this about someone, but I do and I am extremely happy.

Right, I'm off to read my book again!

Night all

xx

IT'S FREAKING FRIDAY and also A FREAKING POST! Farmer Phil, Alcohol, Forums and Fun!

Oh yeah I got that Friday feeling:

Hazza ^.^

Ooooh god I love purple *secret grin*

Also yesterday I was feeling excessively happy...this is summed up below:

1, I got to work late
2, Had 3 quotes to do, was tired...had a Relentless
3, Finished quotes in 5 seconds after downing half of can
4, Dealt with an arsehole of a customer that was...well...being an arsehole really
5, Downed rest of can and had a pro plus
6, Had Neil pecking my head on a voice mail (actually as I write this he's leaving another)
7, Downed half on new relentless can
8, Decided to start calling wankers that haven't paid us
9, Finished 2nd can. Rang 'bob' (we'll say this as it's a big company) and bollocked them
10, 2 more pro pluses, decided to go on a forum I've joined and...well...be me but x 10!
11, Another can of relentless gone down...I have skipped to the kitchen...no more now
12, Rod makes me coffee x 2...I am nearly dead x_x
13, I decide it'll be fun to clean the office
14, Bored because office took 10 mins to clean...normally an hour >.<
15, I go home...then go see Gaz...then doze on sofa! I'm tired by then

I am surprised my heart hasn't given out just yet...



Okay so what's happening tonight then...

I am going out playing pool at the lion and Tap! YOWZA! I so rule at pool (yes Shaun, modest again I know! :p) and I can whack all my fave music on the box and go MAD on corona and lime. Isn't it weird that alcohol makes you feel different things? Depending on what it is. I think I'll make a 'Alcohol+Kat' post in a bit and then people will know what to expect when they see a certain drink clutched in my hand :)

Rod's just brought me some apple slices, NOM NOM! :D he hates them and gets like a fruit combo pot, I love fruit....mmmm

Okay so-FARMER PHIL:

I went there, I got muddy and came away with a mild sprain as I was a tit and raced the children (NOT MINE!!!) and a couple of security guards (they weren't after me, before you say it!) and I fell in a hole...yep...10 stella's will do that to you. I also have pics now! WOWWY! So uploading shall take place, YOWZA!! haha. I'll fill this in a little more later as I'm going to upload now.