So upset

I am so, so sad. This is the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life. I just want to die, I can't do this anymore

October, November and December!

WHOA!

So I've not blogged since SEPTEMBER?! Well, I have been kind of busy...okay, not busy but I've have no net access for a lot of the time.

Sooo, what's happened:

X Moved into my flat October 1st
X Found out there's a drug dealer living below
X Went into Major A&E with a suspected second stroke
X Came out and the places had been burgled by drug dealer
X Lived with my friend for a week as I was too scared to return
X Came back to my flat
X Argued with DWP over lack of payment since August 21st 2010
X Went for numerous tests and MRI scans at hospital
X Confirmation of lumps in/on my brain
X Paramedics over quite a lot
X Went for a medical interview (Christmas eve)
X Went for Christmas round Shauns dads and had to cook the turkey as his dad had covered it in wrapping paper instead of foil. Highly noxious when cooked.
X Didn't get to see any of my family over Christmas and so they were pissed at me.
X Fell out with Sarah as she's being a stupid cunt and arguing with me in the middle of the pub. She can get to fucking fuck now.
X Got annoyed that I hadn't been told the BF was basically upping and leaving to return home on boxing day. He lives with and around the people he was seeing for drinks etc so why he couldn't leave at a later date I have NO idea. What is it with me and men? I'm always second-best to someone/something, just so fed up of it all.
X Went out to see Grandad etc Boxing Day and did something a little daft, but no harm done so all is cool. I'll do what I want, I'm not letting this illness stop me doing what I want to do. Noone else is going to stop me either, twats.
X Played Xbox games as I have the net for 7 days, whoop!
X Not spoken to the BF much, can't be bothered.

So that's about it really! Sorry it's not more informative but I'm not in the right frame of mind for a lengthy one


Merry fucking Christmas.