'All that I've got!' Singing my little heart out

Friday-Glad I can chill!

I love 'All that I've got' by 'The Used,' it's a fantastic song!
'I'll be just fine' - that's my saying!hehe.

I have bee singing SO much recently, pleased to say I am actually 'rather' good! I'd love to do a cover of the above-mentioned song *sigh* also I love 'Rise Against' as they make me feel all tingly inside!hehe.

What's new in the world of Kat you ask? Well, since you asked so nicely-I shall tell you. No longer single, decided to 'give it a go' with Gaz, not sure how it will pan out to be honest, but if you don't give things a go you'll never know! (Ooooh, I am poetic today) I went to the 'Travellers Rest' near Church Stretton, we went past it first (suuuure, you were taking the scenic route my love...not the fact you went too far, no?lol) had lunch there (or dinner, for some reason I always get the two mixed up!!) and went 'Dutch' -but not Dutch because I can't remember what 'half and half' is? What is it? Does anyone know? Or IS it Dutch? Anyway...it was really nice, except he called me 'young woman,' I think he needs to be reminded he is 24, not 42! :p And I am 22, so I can be 22 both ways :D heheheeee

I've been feeling in a very thoughtful and analytical mood recently, not too sure why. I think it's because maybe I sat down the other day and thought, 'where are you going Kat? What are you doing with yourself? What have you got to show for your life so far?' and I was like....um....I have 3 cats? I was thinking about it after taking Grandad out on Wednesday (which I actually quite enjoyed) and he was saying about the things he hadn't done so it got me thinking...but I am only 22 so there is still time. I think Grandad was so good because I kept plying him with 'HPA' (Herefordshire Pale Ale) and I was there sinking back my Corona and limes...mmm....his friend came over and we had a thorough chat about everything under the sun-I love debating!!

I am writing fiction again, this makes me happy :) but unfortunately because I delve into it so completely and try and get 'into' the characters and their emotions I am a little fragile on the emotions side...sounds silly and probably no-one will understand...but fuck 'em all :p

I'm also a little annoyed aswell, whenever anyone has problems they always come to me, who have I got? The pillow and the cats that's who! haha. Yesterday I cleaned like a mad thing, I find this helps if I'm in a semi-down mood, I'm not sure what's been the matter with me recently I suppose it could be PMS, but I'm not sure...I haven't really ever had that. Anyway-I'm sure I'll feel much better next week :)

My fave saying of mine today is, 'Because she's an old scrubber that's why. Her belly hangs like a used kangaroo-pouch because she's had that make kids, they are fucking *walking* out!'

God bless!!!

Also favourite Simon quote, 'Winter ist coming!' his impression of a German psychopath!

My year - chinese astrology

My year overview

OX Ratings
52% (6 favorable and 6 unfavorable months) 52% favorable may not look that great, but it does represent an improvement over last year. You should have as many opportunities as disappointments. Take care to exercise good judgment, and you will do fine. Unfortunately, it is an Earth year and the Earth drains Ox luck. This is not the time to take risks, especially those that are unnecessary or can be avoided. Hard work is more your style any way. The first six months are likely to be the most challenging, so be patient.


OX Career
In the year of the Earth Rat, there could be opportunities for you to advance your career. However, advancement will likely come with a catch. It seems that you might have to change your tactics because your rock steady and workman-like effort on the job will most probably go unnoticed. If you wish to be promoted, especially to a position of authority, you may have to make a bold move, advocate your ideas and augment your skills so that higher-ups will notice the kind of quality work that you have been putting in.


OX Relationships
Transitioning from career to your relationships, this year's Earth element is in agreement with your Oxen personality of steadiness and conservatism. Your strength as a shoulder to cry on and moral support could win you new friends this year. However, that same characteristic could see you used or even worse betrayed in your relationships under the influence of the cunning Rat year. One bright spot may lay in your family relationships, as they might offer you a measure of unconditional love.


OX Health
Your relationships could have a direct bearing on your health this year. As with your relationships, your health could be on a roller-coaster ride. If you become stressed-out from work or your personal life, your mind and body could be weakened. In addition, if you are not open to change, your stubbornness could deplete your immune system, allowing a minor sniffle to turn into a full blown cold.


OX Wealth
Although your health could be rather unstable, your money matters should be more solid and promising. If you own your own business, chances are high that you could see an increase in sales or a decrease in debt. If you have stuck to a conservative budget or investment strategy, you might see your disciplined efforts bring forth financial fruit. In addition, you might encounter good fortune with found money, as an unexpected bonus, court award or monetary winnings.

Chinese Sign the 'Ox' and what it says about me.

The Ox-too stubborn for my own good?

The Ox of Chinese Astrology is no bull in a china shop. Steadfast and solid, this powerful Sign is a born leader, being quite dependable and possessing an innate ability to achieve great things. Oxen tend to be plodding and methodical; they approach projects in the step-by-step manner that serves them best, and they never lose sight of their goal. They are tireless workers who are detail-oriented and believe in doing things right the first time.

The world may perceive Oxen as being far too serious or incapable of loosening up. This sturdy sort is less than social by nature and tends to become introverted in a crowd. To make things worse, they can't be bothered with what other people think and prefer to do what makes them feel best. Behind that calm facade, though, lives an Ox who can feel hurt, lonely and unable to connect with others. Friends and family are a great source of comfort to this beast, even if they don't always understand what makes the Ox tick. As a lover, friend, family member or housemate, the Ox makes a wonderfully strong, tender and affectionate companion who is protective and always reliable.

Out in the world, though, Oxen tend to be stubborn, dogmatic, my-way-or-the-highway kind of people who have no concept of when to back down. Oxen don't care to be pushed, especially since they think they're the good guys of the Chinese Zodiac. There is some truth to that theory, since the Ox is smart, trustworthy, caring and honorable. If you need honest, steady and unbiased advice, call on the Ox.

A good lesson for mighty Oxen is to strive to overcome a judgmental nature that keeps them from getting close to others. If they can learn to value their own good qualities, they'll have more room in their hearts to invite others in.



I got this from some random site. In other places it says I am a Tiger...this confuses me :S

First Piccy uploaded on here

Recap of the amusing night last night!

RECAPTURING TUESDAY.

BONDAGE, EMBARESSMENT AND OTHER NAUGHTY THINGS

FIRST things first-K.W.O.T.W is 'Implode' or 'Implosion,' because it feels like my brain atm...

Implosion is a process in which objects are destroyed by collapsing in on themselves. The opposite of explosion, implosion concentrates matter and energy. An example of implosion is a submarine being crushed from the outside by the hydrostatic pressure of the surrounding water.

Right-on to yesterday!!

Well, I spent the whole DAY with Marie, it was nice catching up and going for lunch and talking about the good ol' days. She's off to London so I gave her strict instructions to get Alan Rickman for me! I shall be obeyed!!lol

Later on she went home and said she'd meet up with me again. We went to go to The Hole in the wall and Tracy rang her asking could she come out aswell. On my way to get credit as Marie yapped on the phone there were two guys in the alley next to the 'Hole' and one shouted, 'Hello!' now...I can't see can I? So I shouted, 'Heya!' back as it sounded like a mate of mine. He said 'How are yah?' I was like...this isn't my friend...fuck... 'Oh...I'm okay thanks, sorry I can't see you that well, shoulda gone to specsavers-hehe...he' then he said, 'Come over here and get a better look then love.' YIKES!!! So I squeaked out, 'I gotta...gotta get credit! Sorry!!'

So I get credit, Marie's been to the bank and we meet outside the Hole...they had gone in there...fuckery-doo. I told Ree about it and she said that she'd seen them. We went into the 'Hole' anyway and had a shifty-quick Apple Sourz (I was doing my best to ignore the guy as I could see him looking!) then they left before us, thank god! So we down the Sourz (Love in a shot glass) and then we go outside to find Tracy who is parked outside the Swan in Frankwell. As we walk down Mardol Dumb and Dumber are behind us! Yeah, the guy from before with his mate :/ Why me....so here it is...the classic and smooth example of my lovely one-liner...ness:

'Hey, where are you going then?
'Not with you'

Just so simple and yet so informative...Ree chuckled at this and we could hear them chatting behind us, we sped up a little bit as we didn't want them following us all the way to Frankwell....luckily they went into the 'Shrewsbury Hotel' instead so we were spared. We got up the road and who do we see santering down with his pasty little legs but...Paul Ryder! It's 'lads night out' as it's a Monday so usually we wouldn't see a man prowling round, he said he didn't want to go out on Lad's night as it buggers him up, awww....that's cos your old Paul!! mwahaha.

So now we have Me, Ree, Paul and Tracy (who showed up seconds after Paul came pasty-legginging it down the road) so we all go into the Wheat Sheaf in Frankwell. The pissing pool tables out of order though!! So I'm annoyed, I console myself with a corona and lime though, thinks makes me happy inside. We have a serious chat with Tracy about a few things she's worried about and I am yet again impressed with how smart I actually am (polishes knuckle on top)

I'm feeling extremely wicked today and would like to find an nwilling person to pray upon. This comes in the form of a man that's jst come into the pub, Ree and Tracy notice my attention is elsewhere and wait with baited breath at what I am about to do,lol!! Gods I'm awful, hehe. I make my best 'sex eyes' and my award-winning smile at him and he walks into the pillar in the pub! Oh my fucking god! That could not have gone ANY better!!lol. Tracy goes off to the loo, sure she's only doing that so she doesn't laugh!! I am quietly snickering away and so is Ree.

Tracy comes back and is sat for a few mins before the man comes to sit on the table by us (behind Tracy, who is facing me) and I smile again at him. He says 'Afternoon' I think or something, we say 'Hiya' back. He's actually quite attractive, about 35 I think? Then he looks brave and says, 'So where are all your fella's then?' and I speak for everyone (My brain works on auto-pilot with this type of thing) 'Those two's are at home and mine is non-existant,' his interest is piqued! 'I don't believe that for a minute!' he says and I smile coyly and ask, 'Why?' he says, 'An attractive thing like you, no boyfriend-can't believe it' I gush! (NOT in my pants! You awful people!lol) he adds, 'But I bet you get that all the time anyway...' not wanting to stop the oncoming compliments I say, 'Yes, but hearing it again doesn't make it any less sweet, darling' I growl out the darling part and he is flushed!hehe!! I am fucking evil >:D (that's my face!)#

Marie and Tracy both go 'wooo' or something like that, I am so smooth!lol. I look down by him and see that he has a few bottles and cokes in a clear bag, I raise an eyebrow and ask, 'What you got there?' he comes out of his fawning look at me to say, 'Oh...just some beers and cans for the kids,' at my sudden cold look he adds, 'Oh! Not *my* kids!!' I smile in a slightly predatorial way and say, 'Goood...I like you better now.' His face is a mixture of fear, lust and worry-just how I like 'em! He says that he's got to be off and I mock-pout, he says 'Bye' and leaves. He has a bike and starts off on that and I shout, 'I LOVE YOU' out the window and he fucking falls off it!! Oh my GOD! I love this man! He doesn't fall off completely, just jars a bit and then WALKS the bike instead! Hmmm, something making you nable to ride it? Is that a bottle of Beck's in your pocket or are you just pleased to see me? Mwahahahahahahahaha

Tracy flames my ego as she says, 'Oh my god Kat! That was amazing!' or something like that, I am inwardly grooming myself like a cat does and am smiling. Marie agrees that that was the smoothest thing she's seen, god love them. They know what I want to hear, LMAO! Marie is also deciding what nights I should have (randomly long convo) and we decide Monday is my Bondage night, Tuesday is S&M, Wednesday is Detention Night, Thursday is Teacher and Pupil roles apparently and Friday is my day off! I was speaking to her about Gaz before-hand and she said have I been 'evil' with him yet or something, I don't think he'd take kindly to me handcuffing him, it is slightly overrated....a paddle to the arse though...hmmmm....anyway that's what happened Monday night! I also went back to Ree's after we left the pub, had some munchies and then toddled home across the bridge.


Names I use for Marie because some people will be confused:
Ree, Marie, Maz and Moto.


Also, listen to Rise Against-'Give it all' and 'Ready to Fall' I can't watch the vid though, makes me sad

Points (of authority) for this week

Points to remember this week:

1, You are off work, so start to sort the attic
2, Paint the window sills
3, Try and figure out where to put your painting
4, Remember to confirm the time of your tattoo
5, Start to work out incomings and outgoings
6, Try and stay away from your booze cabinet
7, When 6 doesn't work because 5 has depressed you don't forget to-Buy new bottle of Jack D's
8, When 7 needs to be repeated more than 3 times start arranging AA meetings
9, Fix sink
10, Get someone else to fix the mess you made of fixing the sink

Monday,Monday-first day off!

MONDAY

For the first time I felt lonely. I never normally feel like this as I delude myself into thinking I'm fine on my own, I can function without a man, my purpose in life does not revolve around me having a man.....*sigh* why do I have to

It'd just be nice once in a while to be greeted by a, 'How was your day?' instead of a 'Meow.'

Because I am actually very lonely.

I have that pain in my chest and my back when I sigh and it's like there's a lead weight in me. It's a 'pang' I think is the best word for it, yeah, I have a 'pang' in my chest, like a thorn pricking your skin...gods...what the heck is wrong with me!?

I'll be fine tomorrow, I'll just go back to being me...the 'other' me, the non-sad one, lol.

A momentary slip in my carefully erected mask

I'm going to sleep now, when I sleep I forget about things

Wed-Sun, 'U' ,Calvin Harris and Quizzage

WOOHOOOOO

Last blog update was TUESDAY!? Fuck-a-me! Oh and if there are any 'u's' missing then I apologise, it seems as if that button is kinda fuckered!

Okay so today is:

SUNDAY

I am pumped today!! Full of sugary goodness as I have had 2 cans of relentless and a nice breakfast, mmm mmm mmm! And some good ol' fashioned sex last night, so I am in a very good mood, hehehehe!! ;D

Just trying to think if I have anything exciting to put in here? Oh! Pru is now dating 'Rye-Pie' (hehe) and she's all gooey and ucky (lol!) so it's up to me to keep the non mushy side going!! (Strikes a heroic pose with an Anit-Affection sign on her hero costume) I can do it! Even though I am a little mushy recently hugs and such :S I can feel my tenuos grip on reality slipping...noooooooo!!

I am off work until Thursday!! Woop woop!! So I am trying to find things to do. I was meant to be in York with Pru, but things happened and she's in Manc (?) with 'Rye-Pie' (teehee) so I have to fill in my time...

Wednesday happened without incident, I didn't do anything really...did I go play snooker with Pru? I can't remember which day it was, may have been Thursday...I went though! Some guys were near the door and I was self-conscious as the one said, 'Do you mind taking your shots facing the other way, I can't concentrate on my shots when your bending down like that...' I didn't go red, like I thought I would, 'Well deal with it, I can't exactly lop them off can I?! And this is a MODEST top!' His eyes nearly came out!I'm going in a bikini next time, that'll fuck him up. But he really annoyed me as every time I took a shot he'd moan or something weird and I could hear his mates saying, 'Go on! Go ask her for her number,' uh...no...I don't want to have to have to put you in a headlock love, I'm being nice and relaxed today, I don't want to go all 'Rambo Kat' today please. Fortunately he must have got the inner bluetoothed message as he didn't bother. They went and I could finish my game in peace.

So that covers Wednesday and Thursday really...

Friday I was meant to be going out, got home, went to sleep!! Bloody hell! I am getting old I think :s so that was pretty frigging quiet-saved money though :) need to for my tattoo's

Yesterda/Saturday was a nice chilled day, I went to the Vaults with Colmo and had a few Corona's and Lime! Mmm mmm mmmm!! Toddled home later on and then fell asleep, Gaz came round and we made kissy-face :p hehe. It was nice, me likey ;p

He left earlier this morning, after moaning that the cat had shed in his coffee (laughs) that man can moan for England ;) so I am sat here writing all this before I go for a nice bath and get ready to mooch up town for a little bit before coming back and doing...well...fuck all basically! I may do some more drawing I think...or song writing, depends which takes my fancy :) I am going to the quiz tonight after coaxing Gaz to reply 'Yes,' to my 'Do you want me at the quiz tonight?' the man's hard going. He said 'I'm not fussed,' when I asked him a few times last night-not what I want to hear, I prefer to be wanted than just 'show up,' so I am slowly getting him to respond in a 'Kat friendly' way. I like things in black and white...speaking of which...I'd better sort out that pissing tie for him! The things I do for people, I tell yah...

I AM IN LOVE WITH CALVIN HARRIS! He is suuuuuper hot *sighs* Mmmm, he's got love for me 'cos I was born in the 80's!!hehe

For some reason I am getting excited about my birthday!? It's in January...I think this is the Relentless's doing! I can't wait though, I hate Christmas but I love my birthday :D I'll be 23 next year, whew! Things are going so fast!

Right, better get washed and dressed then-catcha later! Will write and tell all how the quiz went, I'm trying to cram stuff into my head I may need...not sure if I can remember it all though :s my poor poor brain x_x;