Hello my little blog-readers ^_^*
I have much news! Things have been a little on the crazy side for me recently...well, I say 'recently,' it's the past year or so.
December 2009: I had a TIA and end up in hospital until January time. I was also 'diagnosed'
(I say this loosely as they are still uneasy about naming it this) with something called 'Asymmetrical brain disorder,' or something along those lines :D I can never remember what they tell me now -_-; I need to write things down all the time on paper so I can remember it :/ I feel like I have memory loss now!! It's some version of it.
August: I split up with Gareth after 2 years. It was a...'amicable split,' so far anyway. I'm getting a little annoyed though with certain aspects of it all as I'm made out to be the 'bad guy,' oh! If only they knew :P
August, end of: My family in devon (consisting of mum, Rae and her boyfriend) have been in a bad car crash :( I wasn't sure how bad until I found out that they had been lying to me about everyone being at home and being 'fine.' Rae and Rob were at home and mum is STILL in hospital :'( she should be out of hospital by this wednesday (8th September) so I can finally chat to her. I know that she wanted to keep me 'safe' from the knowledge that she was ill as she worries about me and says that I can't 'take anymore bad news,' I'm not going to break! I would prefer people to tell me the truth, I've been lied to about other important things and I don't want it to carry on! Hopefully I'll have more news on everyone's health when I write next (God knows when that will be!) I pray it's all good news in any case. I just wish the person that is sticking the pins in my doll would fuck off already!
September: I started dating Shaun <3 style="font-weight: bold;">
At the moment I have children talking to me in my ear and I cannot concentrate! ARGH! Bugger orf ;P I am living with my father, his partner and her kids (the girl is 13 and the boy is 11) I get peace mainly, I do try and stay in the one front room (they have 2) as it's 'Kat's space,' apparently. I do need the peace though, not for antisocial reasons, but because I must have quiet sometimes so that my brain can rest. I feel worse each week in a different way than last. My eye is the thing that's annoying me the most recently, my right one feels a lot weaker than the other. I'm also saying words wrong and sometimes write letters backwards :( I try and be as ambidexterous as I can be (the children have gone now, so I can concentrate) although my writing with my left hand sucks.
I hope the new flat is ready soon. I am in my fathers debt for putting me up like this, I know they appreciate the fact that I take the kids out (with a sniper rifle if I had my way...j/k) and that I do a lot of housework and stuff but I do feel like I am a huge pain in the arse here and I want to have my own space again. I need to rustle up £285.00 for the first months rent in advance, but I've been told I can sign a bond that enables me to do away with paying any deposit etc, I'd just have to pay for anything I break (it's unfurnished so I doubt I'll be smashing anything of mine up!) I just hope everything goes a little smoother than it has been doing recently.
I THINK that's about it, I've got to go now as don fajah has asked me to check his magical chip cooking machine (one of those ones that you have to put in a spoon of oil rather than a litre) otherwise he will do my head in about it -_-;
See yah all!
xxx
6 Sept 2010
Ah, an update !!WARNING!! EMO AHEAD!
11 Feb 2010
Running and a new regime
Okay, today is Thursday 11th of February.
A lot has happened since my last post-I suffered a mini-stroke (TIA) back in December and it has left me with partial paralysis in my rght arm and leg. I also suffer from severe focal migraine, basically this means that parts of my body become numb when I suffer from an attack. I am currently off work and have been for nearly 2 months. I visited my Doctor today and he has signed a sick-note for another 2 weeks, in this time I'm going to try and sort out my health (other than the paralysis that is.)
So, day of new regime goes:
Swimming on Monday night and Wednesday night (time table below) from about 6:30pm-7:30pm, this gives me a solid hour warming up for running later on.
Running at night, most nights if I can (must remember to keep away from bikers-most of them seem to not have lights on their bloody bikes!) around 7:00pm-ish until 7:30pm-8:00pm.
Opening Hours
Monday-Friday (except Thursday-see below) 8.00 am - 9.00pm (last ticket 8.30pm)
Thursday & Bank Holidays: 8.00am - 6.00pm (last ticket 5.30pm)
Saturday: 8.00am - 4.30pm last ticket 4.00pm
Sunday: 8.00am - 5.30pm (last ticket 5.00pm)
Hopefully this will be easy enough to stick to. I enjoyed my run tonight in any case, I do need to remember to buy a sports bra at some stage as having no bra on killed me! I cannot use my regular bra as it seems to hurt when I run.
Jogging through the quarry tonight I realised how beautiful it was to watch the street lights hit the water, it gave me something decent to look at whilst thinking about things. Recently I realise I have lost my purpose in life, I don't really have anything I am striving towards and this makes me depressed. The new tablets I have been assigned shall hopefully fix the migraine problems and I can get back to work-I figure if I bury myself within work and exercise I shall bury my problems and my roaming mind will be kept busy. I have been thinking about all the things I don't have-not on a materialistic level, but on a enriching my life type of vein. I've never wanted these things before and coming to terms with my need for them now has left me grmpy and contemplative. As I say, if I am kept busy my exercise at least then my mind will hopefully shut up and my inner body clock will be kept silent aswell.
Food is a big problem for me, at the moment (past month) I have been eating less and less-this is to do with me stuck inside though and not using up any extra energy. I want to try and stick to:
- 2 slices of toast with marmalade or jam/Crunchy nut cornflakes in the morning
- I am going to miss out my afternoon meal (I haven't been having anything anyway)
- At night I am probably going to have crunchy nut cornflakes (dependng on how I feel and what I am doing later that day) soup/baked potato/salad/small stir fry.
Well that's it for now, I'm going shopping with Marie tomorrow so I'll try and purchase a swimming costume whilst I am out-that is my main goal as I used to love swimming.
Right, that's me done! I'll pop another entry down when I have news.
3 Jun 2009
Piccies!
This one is an avvy I sometimes use, it's really cute! ^^
This one is something the internet famous thr0b made for me when we were having a pretty odd conversation :S it's still funny though :D
Work!
HOWZA!
This is the low-down:
So I started work! Yay! It seems to be going well enough, very busy! I have a problem with one person who I have to care for, but the rest are pretty much okay people, you just have to take them as you find them day-to-day.
I have finished my manual handling course and also have a first aid one to go to next week! EEEP! So at least I will be fully prepared if anything should happen on my watch, hopefully not!
Me and G went to view a house in Monkmoor, it was 3 bedrooms and very nice! It needs a bit of modernising, but at £129,000 it's a steal! Sadly, we need to sort out our place first before we can zoom over to a new place, but viewing that enabled us to see what things are on the market at the moment. It's a great time to buy! We have been discussing how to go about wallpapering etc, it seems the best bet is to get all the paper and just hire someone-Gazs boss knows someone who will do it for us at a reduced price I believe (?) or something...I don't really listen to him :/ erk!
The only thing then is to repaint bits of the place and just use a carpet cleaner and make sure the place is free from clutter-I should be able to store a lot in nans garage and that should help with moving stuff around and DIY'ing!
I have been bounding around everywhere and walking a lot for work, I have lost 5lbs! I am pretty impressed with myself, I am also not eating as much because we don't really get to have a break in this line of work :( boo! Speaking of which, I had better do some lunch before I go and do a late shift, then Gaz can have some when he gets in too then :) I'm a good girl ^^
I'll be visiting Val (Gazs mum) on Saturday for the first time to help her out of bed and such like. We both agreed that we didn't mind having to have me over there and doing what was necessary as it's part of my job. Hopefully we won't feel too awkward. Gazs dad (Bob) was rubbing his hands together in glee when he saw I had to pop over and attend to Val, the bugger :D
I get on really well with all the family, well, at least I THINK I do! I have a minor problem with Jo and Bob (Gazs brother and sister in law-I know, 2 Bobs!) but that's mainly because when we go to their place I feel akward because she seems a bit...sort of...prudish? But not prudish...it's complicated! Bob (brother) is okay on his own, but I feel he restrains himself a bit when around Jo, which I don't really like I suppose as I believe you should feel comfortable in your own skin, but each to their own!
The other brother (Mike) and his wife (Donna) will be coming over soon to stay over the weekend at Bobs (brother), I think? So I shall be able to meet them, just hope all is okay! May have to avoid the wine methinks :D it's only because I get nervous, even though people say I don't seem to be-I AM! :( We don't really see my family, mums and Rae are in devon, dads a prat and nans mental! We saw Aunty Caz a little while ago and we have been invited for a BBQ, but whether that will happen or not, I don't know. I'd prefer it if I could just be 'on my own,' away from all the family as I don't really feel comfortable taking a partner around to them-mum is fine like, but not the rest really.
Gaz has been talking about going to Portugal or somewhere for a holiday. I don't really 'do' holidays. I can't fly (obviously for I have no wings!) because I am petrified of heights. I really want to get over that as I would like to go to Tokyo at some stage, but at the moment funds are non-existant! I have my first pay check this month, towards the end. I have had to work 2 weeks in advance aswell, so I'll only get 2 weeks worth-which is a bit shit to be honest, but there we go. Hopefully I can put some money back, just in case things go tits up and I need to move out for some reason. That is always at the forefront of my mind, I am quite big on the self-preservation scene!
3 months contract to get hrough before I get another year with them, that's if they still want me! :( I hope so -_-; it's hard work but I like it. The only thing that really annoys me I suppose is the fact that some of the carers that have done it for 3 years+ want me to go at the same pace/speed as them! The problem with that of course is that I am NEW and am not used to all the people I have to go to yet!! It is annoying :( I wish they could remember back to when they had just started the job and how hard it was being new.
I worked with 'Z' yesterday, she was really nice! A little younger than me I think as she looks it. We did double-up shifts, which basically means we had 'hoist' work to do and you need 2 people for that, 1 to power the hoist and the other to help with the adjusting of the sling and different things. I enjoyed it, I also met a new person and he was nice, very slow though :( my full hour session with him turned into an hour and a half nearly! He had a stroke and is getting used to walking again, but VERY slowly. I wish that people would understand it takes longer to walk and thusly I need more time with him as he doesn't want to go into the wheelchair again-I can't blame him!
WHEW! Well, I think that's about it! Anything new and I shall pop a post on here ^^
Shinny FTWinny! :D
30 Apr 2009
Good news at last?
Wahey!
Well, this is what's been happening so far (nicely laid out in bullet points so mass-text doesn't damage your optic nerves):
- I applied for the job with a care company
- I got an interview
- I passed :)
- I got sent for a CRB-this is still ongoing, although I can do shadow work
- I got a tax refund of quite a bit to see me through until I start work
- I haven't got swine flu
- I am doing a joint blog with someone for comedy purposes
- I keep writing porpoises instead of purposes, it is annoying
- I think that maybe we should have Chinnyhill sectioned, it'd be kinder than letting him live on with Duran, Duran.
- I shall post info on the new blog for people to view!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!
More on this all at a later date-gotta zoom off and sort out banks and giro's...I so won't miss the job centre!
8 Apr 2009
iPod game thingy!
1. Put your Ipod (or the nearest equivalent) on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!
- 1. If someone says "Is This Ok?" you say? 10000 Nights of Thunder (Alphabeat)
- 2. What would best describe your personality? I thought it was over (The Feeling)
- 3. What do you look for in a guy/girl? Handle me (Robyn)
- 4. What is your life's purpose? Aerodynamic (Daft Punk)
- 5. What is your motto? Just Dance (Lady Gaga)
- 6. What do your friends think of you? Shine on (The Kooks)
- 7. What do you think about very often? Breakout (Foo Fighters)
- 8. What is 2+2? Love Song (Sarah Bareillis)
- 9. What do you think of your best friend? Holy Diver (Killswitch Engage)
- 10. What do you think of the person you like? Why do you love me? (Garbage)
- 11. What is your life story? The Girls (Calvin Harris)
- 12. What do you want to be when you grow up? Cherry Lips (Garbage)
- 13. What do you think when you see the person you like? Heartbeat (Scouting for girls)
- 14. What do your parents think of you? Call me when your sober (Evanescense) *:D
- 15. What will you dance to at your wedding? Stand my ground (Within Temptation)
- 16. What will they play at your funeral? Are you in? (Incubus) *Well I hope I am IN my coffin I guess!*
- 17. What is your hobby/interest? Jumping all over the world (Scooter) YES!
- 18. What is your biggest secret? Filmstar (Suede) *I WISH!*
- 19. What do you think of your friends? Come with me (Special D) *Follow meee-famous last words!*
- 20. Whats the worst thing that could happen? I wish you were here (Incubus)
- 21. How will you die? We didn't start the fire (Billy Joel) *Oh shit...*
- 22. What is the one thing you regret? The Pretender (Foo Fighters)
- 23. What makes you laugh? Falling in love again (Eagle eye Cherry)
- 24. What makes you cry? Dance, Dance (Fallout Boy)
- 25. Will you ever get married? Sex is on fire (Kings of Leon) *Ah well, at least the sex will still be good!*
- 26. What scares you the most?Man! I feel like a woman (Shania Twain) *Scared of being a woman!? I am broken*
- 27. Does anyone like you? Crazy for you (Let loose) *A yeah then?*
- 30. What will you post this as? Poison (Alice Cooper)
:D!!
Well some of those were pretty bloody funny!! Hehehehe.
DO IT!
26 Mar 2009
Woah! I forgot about you-
Mister Blog!
I am a numnuts and never write in you anymore :S my bad >.<
Today I am sat at the keyboard in my Sheepeh PJs and pondering about things pondersome. I have eaten a large bowl of cocopops to assuage my hunger, but it has done little to fill my cavernous maw :'( so I may do an Oliver Twist and have some MORE!!
I have been gardening and walking and jogging and ALL SORTS of things since I last spoke to you Mister Blog! I know you don't really care as you are just a web-based programme but I do feel like I should stop by and just tell you what's being doing on:
- Mum has cut down on her ciggys as she has COPD, she is also struggling to live because my father (*cunt*) has decided to go AWOL and not pay back-dated child maintenance and stuff-he has racked up a huge £2000.00 in money that he owes here. That is a big I.O.U
- Father dearest still owes me redundancy money and other cash, about £800.00 owed
- Mum and Rae are coming here to live so I am arranging a house swap with them-oooh! I feel like them lot on t'telly :)
- I have STILL not been able to find a job, regardless of what position I apply for-but then there are about 80 people going for the same bloody job around here :S
- Smokey was Spayed, no I didn't hit her over the head with a garden implement-silly! So she is now feeling 100% better and has stopped 'calling' and acting distressed.
- We have been having a 'girls night' on Mondays and it's great! Really brightens a shitty start to the week up :)
- Rae went into hospital and had an operation on her womb, hopefully she'll be okay as she needs to go back for a check-up yet to find out what the biopsy has shown.
- My knee-caps are seizing quite badly recently, regardless of the walking I am doing. 7 or so years before they should be replaced, if we are going on what Dr.Maxton said :S so there goes my mobility...hoo-fucking-rah!
- The cats are driving me MENTAL! But in a good way
- I am also promoting a 'forum' that I am on-decent people please apply ;) it's just a general place to come and have a natter about stuff and also to exchange talk on games etc. Here is the linkage for you: http://www.sotalkaboutgames.com/forum/index.php I am under the handle of 'Shin,' a joke/name some of you may know about ;) we also have 'GAME NIGHT' on TUESDAY and POKER!
- Alex and Allen have had a baby! Who would have thunk it?! I would never have believed Allen to have a baby, obviosul HE didn't but...oh, you know what I mean!
- I dressed up as a scurvy pirate-YARGH-for Red nose day :) it was great fun! Pics soon.
- I have had many birthdays to attend this month, it's been a stretch on the owd purse strings I can tell you!
- Gaz got a raise *fnarr!* NOT that kind, you filthy things ;)
- I have been mainly drunk
Poor David Jason, who we used to love as Del Boy and also Frost has been labelled as a 'racist,'
He told an "off colour" joke on Absolute
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/entertainment/7965058.stm
Sorry, don't find that offensive-plenty of Englishman and Irishman jokes like that normally around Guiness or stuff like that and playing on names. Really annoys me all that 'ZOMG RACIST' shit-remember kids, you are only racist if you are white *rolls eyes* whatever.
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I have also recently been reading about 'war dogs' and 'war horses' and it has made me all teary-eyed (this is going somewhere, I promise) and they put the names of the dogs up on the memorial stone and they had one called 'Nig,' now remember this is YEARS ago and people are moaning recently about it-uhhh, it's his NAME and they weren't going to not include him on the rememberance thing because of that so shut up! People go sooo PC at things and it really isn't needed half of the time, it's just stupid.
More info about what I have been reading/learning:
I was inspired by looking at LOLdogs and I was reading some of the comments on http://ihasahotdog.com/2009/03/10/funny-dog-pictures-vet-honored picture as I wanted to know more about it. I then learnt about the 'Battle of Guam' and the dogs that were used to help search for mines and enemies and such like.
There's a lot of stupid comments and daft arguements, but I was just reading all the info being posted about it all and what happened in that war. It's really nice that the memorial was made for the dogs that died in 'service' aswell and not just the humans that were out there.
I also came across http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Smoky_(dog) (c. 1943 – 21 February 1957), a Yorkshire Terrier, who was a famous war dog who served in World War II. She weighed only four pounds and stood seven inches tall. Smoky is credited with beginning a renewal of interest in the once obscure Yorkshire Terrier breed.
I am a massive gayer and was quite soppy reading all of this
It just hits home how clever animals really are.
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Led+Sheep+Spare time=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDAM5lSPCwk
FANTASTICO! Check out the vid!!
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This made me laugh: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/newstopics/howaboutthat/5041848/Teenager-paints-60ft-phallus-on-roof-of-family-home.html Kids today, eh?
Nice the parents found it amusing :)
